New Beginning When Least Expected...

Shocked....I didn't know what to say.  After returning from a vacation where the sun was only out the 1st day, the clouds had followed me home and I was stunned, but not totally surprised. I had taken the morning to get caught up at home, then taught a cardio, dance fitness class before going into the office to review emails and attend a team meeting. However, just minutes after the meeting started, I was asked to follow my manager into another office. I was told with the department's reorganization, my position duties were restructured and my position was being eliminated.

I nodded and smiled.  More lo
gistics were provided and then I walked to my desk to gather some of my personal belongings.  Tons of thoughts ran through my head but I didn't cry and I actually wasn't that sad.  I actually felt more relief than anything!  I felt like a weight had been pulled from my shoulders and I was FREE!!

I've worked at the University of Kentucky for 12 years and always loved my job. However as things changed in the department it started to feel like I didn't fit with the changes.

So now I am at the point in my life where I can start a new beginning and I have to decide what that's going to be.  I'm still in shock that this has happened but I'm confident that I can take time to dig deep and find myself and determine the next thing I really want to do.

I always said I didn't want to be a stay at home mom but now as a Beachbody Coach and Country Heat LIVE instructor I feel like I have the time to really expand my groups and team as I also look for other job opportunities.  No matter what, I know Matt will support me and my actions will impact my girls so I must be strong for them.

This experience will help me learn about myself and grow in other relationships as well.  I feel I've handled the situation well so far because of my experiences with a previous job where I outgrew the position and needed to move on. I know this situation won't be exactly like the last.  I didn't have kids then and I didn't have a solid side business. I didn't have the network and friendships I have now.  And I didn't have the personal development to keep me positive and guide through my "Bounce Back."

Today as I read Coach Cal's introduction, I was given the first few steps of what I need to do over the next few days:

1. Compile and lean on a Kitchen Cabinet
2. Be honest with yourself.
3. Own my performance....take responsibility for the good and bad that I have done.
4. Make lists of what you want to do and who to contact. Get thoughts out of your head.

"Championship organizations aren't built in a day or even a week. Your bounce back isn't going to happen at the snap of a finger," Coach John Calipari.

I know I am in the beginning stages of this journey and I am going to feel lots of emotions and have several shifts.  I may feel like isolating myself at some periods of time, but so far I have wanted to stay social online and meet with friends for lunch.  I may feel regret and want to bargain with myself how I could change the situation, but at the moment I am really at peace with it. Anger is likely to come and for that I will continue with my morning workouts...probably Country Heat, Yoga or Kickboxing. I know frustration is normal and I must be patient until I find my next step. Until then I will focus on my family and Beachbody groups.  This will also help me from becoming depressed as I will continue my mission to help others be happy and healthy.

I am moving forward and not looking back.  There is nothing I can change over the last few months or years and nothing I really want to change.  In the last week the only thing I would have changed would have been more sun in the Dominican!! There are several opportunities to consider and I have amazing family and friends to support me.  I KNOW I WILL find another way to financially assist my family and I WILL do the hard work to find what's best for us!!